Any time is right for LEMON-y LOVE with Jane’s Paleo lemon loaf!

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NO JOKE… THIS WAS A HIT ON ONE OF MY FILM SETS THIS YEAR AS I LIKE TO BAKE FOR MY FELLOW CAST AND CREW FAMILY. I believe every set should have healthy options for everyone that taste super!!!

And this recipe can be made into beautiful little cakes, too!

wp-1474488710335.jpgSee end of this post for the fancy cake version ūüôā

Ingredients:

1 ¬ĺ cup cashew flour

¬ľ cup arrowroot powder

1 ¬Ĺ teaspoon baking powder

1 ¬Ĺ teaspoon baking soda

¬Ĺ teaspoon sea salt

3 large organic eggs

1/3 cup melted coconut oil

¬ľ cup honey (or 1/2 cup Monkfruit powder)

¬Ĺ cup freshly pressed lemon juice (this is essential that is freshly squeezed!)

zest of 4 lemons‚ÄĒdon‚Äôt skimp on this!

1/3 cup nondairy milk of choice. I use almond

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Magic drizzle

1 tablespoon honey

1 tablespoon almond mylk

¬Ĺ teaspoon vanilla bean extract

2 tablespoons coconut butter

¬Ĺ heaping tablespoon of coconut oil

¬ľ cup of unsweetened shredded coconut (can opt for lighter in fat version)

What to do:

-Set oven to 370 to warm up as you prep rest

-Grease up the inside of your loaf pan, preferably silicon one recycled cardboard

-Combine all the dry ingredients (flours, baking powder & soda, salt)

-Whisk up eggs, coconut oil, honey, lemon juice, zest, and almond mylk

-Combine wet with dry ingredients

-Pour in pan and bake about 45 minutes until edges welcome you by browning

-Check to see if the inside is set by poking with a chopstick or similar

-If it’s not ready and set enough in the middle, cover with foil and leave another 5 minutes

-Take out of oven and let set in pan until cooled.

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-Combine all warmed and softened ingredients in small bowl

-wait until thick enough to drizzle and spread on top of bread that is cooled

-press in the coconut shreds to fully set the frosting onto the bread…

-leave in fridge until ready to eat.

Slice up and devour‚Ķ but share, too!. .. It’s okay to drool… this is a decadently fresh bit of baking goodness!

For more delightfully delicious, sustainable, and good for you delights, follow my other passion project http://www.EATScommunity.org … and find the community on social media @EATScommunity ! ¬†Thank you ūüôā

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FANCY CAKE VERSION: 

Put your batter into a mold you choose (silicone molds are easy to work with!)

After baking, cooling, and popping them out of the molds, be ready to add the yummy decorative frosting!  To make it more solid than the version for the loaf, add more coconut manna than the other ingredients.

1/3 cup Coconut manna

1/8 cup coconut oil

1/4 cup honey

1 Tablespoon lemon zest

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Melt all in a double boiler and mix together… let cool slightly to frost decoratively. Should be thick substantive when mixed but soft enough to be moldable.

Mash up fresh berries with drizzle of lemon juice and monkfruit granules if you want it sweeter.

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Top the cake with scoop of favorite frozen dessert.  I love coconut mylk icecream!

Enjoy ūüôā

 

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HEALTHY MAKES ME HAPPY – My Superfood Amazeballs (GF/V)!

I love making this for folks who already enjoy healthy treats as well as for those who are skeptical that healthy can be yummy.

I made the original version quite delicious, but that was earlier in my strive-to-be-healthier days.. and now I altered a few things to make them even better. ¬†NOTHING BUT WHOLE FRUIT WITH FIBERS TO SWEETEN (except in the choc. chips), LOTS OF HEALTHY FATS, AND PLENTY OF SUSTAINING FIBER…

THIS IS MOIST AND A DELIGHT TO EAT AND SHARE!

THE ORIGINAL :https://joiedejane.wordpress.com/2013/03/05/191/

New and Improved and Better for you~~

New and Improved and Better for you~~

NEW AND IMPROVED recipe:
Ingredients:
6 bananas, ripe, mashed (moist base)
1 heaping cup each of old-fashioned oats, shredded coconut, & cooked quinoa (sprouted overnight then cooked for 15-20 minutes until done and not dry)
1 cup pecans (or any nut you prefer.. or replace with seeds if nuts are not your preference)
1.5 cup chopped farmers market fresh dates…caramel-ly..mmm
2 cups of chocolate chips (used barley sweetened one) or 1 cup of raw cacao nibs
1/8 cup of raw mesquite powder
1 Tablespoon each of  white chia seeds and hemp seeds
few pinches of himalayan pink salt
dollop of vanilla bean paste
dashes of cinnamon
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Mix up and put in fridge or 20 min or so and preheat oven to 380.
Scoop into little dough balls and bake at 2:50 for about 30 minutes… until lightly browned.
note: (you can substitute fresh apple sauce if you would like, but then I would add a flax egg to bind the ingredients more or just press each doughball into the scooper more firmly.)
Eat and share, share, share…and eat, again!
WHY?  BECAUSE HEALTHY MAKES ME (& OTHERS) HAPPY!
I shared this on my ¬†most recent film set and felt great about it, especially when both the gals and guys enjoyed the treats when we wrapped! (…along with another awesome LMEON-y DREAAMMMMY Paleo treat… recipe for that coming soon!)
more and more amazeballs to eat and share!

more and more amazeballs to eat and share!

Asian American Milestones

Am I optimistic about the future for realistic portrayals of non-white America in Film and TV? Well, mostly… and I was more encouraged when I¬†attended this event on May 6th, 2015. UCLA celebrated the 10 year anniversary of when Asian American Studies became an official department. ¬†So many of media’s up and comers and better-knowns among Asian American talent, both on-screen and behind the camera found their direction in the early years of UCLA’s Asian American classes when it was just called a speciality. ¬†Justin Lin (film director), Randall Park (actor of Fresh Off the Boat) , Michael Golamco (writer), Grace Borrero Moss at NBC Diversity Casting… just to name a few and there are so many others (including myself, although I started my acting career much, much later than those mentioned above.)

10 years!!!

10 years!!!

So, while we have seen a drop in the number of Asian faces on screen in the 2014-15 television season, we can be hopeful as many shows championing diverse casting have been renewed.   Read this blog for more:

http://deadline.com/2015/05/american-crime-castle-agents-of-shield-agent-carter-galavant-secrets-lies-fresh-off-the-boat-renewed-abc-1201422717/

One statistic that remains with me post-event is how Asian Americans watch so little live television ¬†(no surprise there for me! LOL.) Grace Moss of NBC mentioned that in one month As/Ams watch about 82 hours, whereas Black Americans watch about 201 hours. ¬†That’s a staggering difference! … and so As/Ams cannot moan about why we aren’t on television more when we don’t support the faces on the tube. ¬†

Let’s find ways to advocate for more diverse casts that are truthful and relevant to our social and cultural realities…watch more TV, perhaps, is the simple way… one bottleneck in this effort toward a flow of a wide spectrum of cultures (and colors) represented on screen may be found in the writer’s room, as well as among the sea of showrunners, sorely lacking¬†showrunners of mixed cultural backgrounds.create more content with a more color-ful reflection of our times and put our pocket books behind them. I do understand the frugal mentality of many Asian cultures, however, so it’s a worthwhile battle to get this affluent segment of American society to open their billfolds and take a gamble on a very viable and emerging “face” of Hollywood. ¬†It’s a calculated risk…yes, the audience is out there and so is the talent, both burgeoning and in¬†need of a broader expanse upon which to play and take flight. ¬†How? I would love to hear your suggestions!

This article sheds more light: http://www.scpr.org/programs/the-frame/2015/04/24/42564/asian-american-youtube-celebrities-aim-to-change-p/ 

Thank you to my brother in the arts Lawrence Chau for sharing this last article with me.

Let’s forge onward! Making and embracing opportunities together and for one another… I look forward to continuing to contribute to honest¬†textures in media, but understand that it is still an uphill battle to change much of established “Hollywood” practices. ¬†Perhaps this is too “asian” of me.. but I accept that means much more is required of me as an actor and a business professional to make it safe and alluring enough to make changes in favor of a still “token” face like mine.

GO BRUINS for the seminal work started so long ago just beginning to prove noticeably fruitful.

Grace Borrero Moss speaks at event

Grace Borrero Moss speaks at event

Riveted! Movies For Grownups Gala

wpid-20150202_202827.jpgThe first time I was privileged to attend AARP’s stellar MOVIES FOR GROWNUPS gala, I was thrilled and humbled to be included in such a prestigious event. ¬†Now, this second time for the 14th annual gathering, I am even more awestruck with the entirety of the experience…and I am not one to be easily starstruck nor bowled over by Hollywood’s bright lights and glitz. This private affair awash with such seasoned celebrities¬†so comfortably mingling throughout the evening with a certain unpressured assuredness: the impact,¬†ineffable. ¬†While most were not quite my¬†social or age cohort, I also found myself surprisingly relaxed¬†in their midst as I¬†felt free to¬†firm footedly enjoy being one openly hungry to learn …what a gift to¬†be uninhibited, fully inspired by those in the evening’s spotlight. These industry veterans and honorees certainly have so¬†much to share… I wonder if even they realize just how much…

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JOHN LEGUIZAMO HOSTING

Jane+Park+Smith+14th+Annual+Movies+Grownups+MACr4uNEaZYlAs one’s journey through life and vocation was oft celebrated this evening, it similarly was in the process of giving these well-deserving artists their just desserts throughout the event that so many deeply authentic words and moments poured forth onto all who would hear. ¬†In earnest hope that such sagacity be not lost on the youth, I am sharing just some particulars here so that the impact and exhortations be not lost or wane over time for me.

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RENE RUSSO with FERNANDO TORRES-GIL

Hosted by an appropriately irreverent-enough John Leguizamo,¬†my awesome mentor and friend, first Assistant Secretary for Aging for the Adminstration on Aging, and esteemed AARP board member Fernando Torres-Gil and I chuckled through the program in appreciation of the host’s¬†smarts and wit that spanned the decades of perspectives in the room. ¬†After the stars of The Theory of Everything lauded all whom worked with them, especially showing sweet regard to the people they depicted so heart-rendingly beautifully, Leguizamo referred to Hawkins’ ¬†hope-infused battle with ALS with as much respect as¬†well-intentioned levity to further engage an already enthralled audience.

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EDDIE REDMAYNE & FELICITY JONES

In listening to the non-speeches offered from this adept group of professional storytellers, recurrent themes of human struggle, compassion, and exuberant overcoming illumined a palpable unifying spirit in the room.

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MARIA SHRIVER WELCOMES JULIANNE MOORE

It’s about how you live… not how you lose,” said Julianne Moore as she ended her time at the podium, calling out the heroism in those who fight all manner of debilitation and impossible odds. ¬†In fact, 65% of those with Alzheimer’s are women and 2/3’s of their caretakers are also women. ¬†Staggering. ¬†Sobering. With 20% of the America anticipated to be seniors in 15 years, who can turn away from this disease that, according to Maria Shriver, “has no survivors,” except, I add, the heartbroken who remain. I speak of the family members and dearest friends of those claimed by the disease¬†who wish their loved one had not struggled and suffered so much spiraling indignity and cognitive decline before passing into a beloved, living memory.

Surely, such dreaded fears can bind us or motivate us to become free and compel us to continue to work together, recognizing how much we need one another to become our best as an individual and as one, like-minded group. ¬†A man who surged into acclaim by his daring to direct for the first time ever at the age of 74 helped expunge¬†my acculturation¬†toward timidity when he said that he¬†“wanted to do something that truly terrifies (paraphrased)” him while standing onstage accepting praise for the results of his intrepid dream-doings (my neologism for passionate callings acted upon). Israel Horovitz is a new force in filmmaking I look forward to working with one day!

In togetherness, so many¬†greater possibilities lay waiting¬†to be unveiled to the esteemed adventurers who dare to continue to¬†transgress against conventional needs for¬†safety nets. With necessary abandon, such intrepid artists feed sustainably off a certain, collective bravery linking peers pressing onward to that tireless¬†directive to affect change with a unique signature only their own.¬†“The JOY of what we get to do all the time is collaborate,” said J.K. Simmons as his stream of consciousness talk showcased his style of steps taken deliberately in search for truth in the work, with a self-deprecation so very real and remarkably human. ¬† So much of what was shared was simple, yet grand in its universality…and then came the key call to rise and go forth.

Kevin Coster. ¬†Yes, I intended that to be just one sentence. ¬†It should stand alone as plain and powerfully as the man who bears the¬†name. After embracing his AARP status due to his “f-in’ birthday,” he continued to¬†share from his heart,¬†“I would simply and respectfully¬†ask¬†you to look back and then to look inward for the dreams you once had…some realized, some not… and then, like an athlete, I would ask you to look up at the clock.” Framing¬†the activism that can make the 60’s a heyday of laurels to rest upon, he quips, “can’t we just forget the 60’s… well no, not for the next 5 minutes…” “…and no, I am not kookoo… I know that One Direction was the most popular band in the country last year, but the 3rd most pop band was the Rolling Stones. In fact 15 of the top grossing tours last year, half of them were over the age of 50.” ¬†Reminding the older Americans of their vitality and the necessity of their re-emergence in the world today, he continued,

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W/ LIFETIME ACHIEVEMENT AWARD HONOREE KEVIN COSTNER

I think our generation still has time to fulfill it’s promise. I think winning and losing is still before us.

we were the first generation that knew something was broken and we weren’t afraid to take it on. The difference was we were teenagers, right, we were in our twenties… but something is still broke.” And hearkening back to the call to be as an athlete keeping track of the tick-tock, he shares his experience in preparing for the movie 13 Days. Reflecting on his¬†a private conversation in the Oval Office with then President Kennedy, he shared a bit of it,

you need to know the inning Jack; you need to know the score. You need to know how much time you have left in the game.

In his most gentlemanly way, he mindfully refused to ramble on into the late night and made his point that heralds the need to fight ageism in our youth-centric society.

“…we still are the boomers… we are not just old dogs looking for one last fight. ¬†I think we have a chance to stand taller than we ever thought was possible. ¬†I think we have a chance to go out with a bang… there’s still time– I don’t now how much, but there’s still time…”-Kevin Costner

How much time will we waste or redeem either by maintaining the silent status quo among our brightest and most experienced elders muffled largely by a brooding atmosphere of disregard or by bringing out the best in the babes as well as our currently under appreciated and overlooked seniors.  Careless dismissal from some does not negate true relevance. I deeply feel intergenerational bridges must be restored or built anew.  Perhaps some of the answers we are looking for in our youth to solve current and future ills can and should be addressed now alongside the Greatest Generation.

Ironically, is it not our elders who by blood, sweat, tears, and unimaginable sacrifice allowed so much of our present day freedoms to lull many of us into our exclusionary comfort zones? ¬†Then, I propose it would be apropo to invite and empower our elders to arise out from under the isolation and doldrums they feel sequestered in. There is a larger picture… prevailing winds to take heed to. When our elders in times past have borne so much of the cost and we bear the burden of option-paralysis in a¬†consequential¬†burgeoning of conveniences, what ominous personal, national, and global costs and unbending taskmasters are we ignorant of that are unfavorable and imminent, and being so, reparable? ¬†The legacy of a great American hero and wise elder who passed in 2014 drives home the¬†value in taking account of ourselves in the context of community.

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W/ JON SMITH & BELOVED FRIEND AND HERO LOUIS ZAMPERINI #RIP

Louis Zamperini not once, in our nearly 20 years of friendship built upon a shared faith, nostalgic meals, tea-time, and sunroom chat sessions ne’er pricked me with any self-lauding woes or wooed me with¬†tales of his history-making service to God and country. ¬†He was just my “dear Louis” and I, to him, seemed to be a promising and ambitious whipper snapper he had to pray toward the most prudent path. ¬†His prayers certainly paved many a blessed, narrow way¬†for me. In reflecting on his life and shared memories together, I see now that he simply enjoyed the wonders of living, relishing the fruits of his giving due to heaven’s grace poured into his life. ¬†He gave so much, he was too busy to think of his own comforts and wanted nothing more than to appreciate sweetness of transformed lives in times of peace. ¬†I wonder if I cherished him enough… and I ache with the wish I would have somehow loved him more.

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W/ LISA MARSH RYERSON -EXEC. DIR. AARP FDN.

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W/ FERNANDO TORRES-GIL

In addition to listing the award recipients below, I want to honor the¬†awesome AARP Foundation for¬†casting¬†a high standard for our future, inviting all generations to join. I also give thanks¬†Mary “Margy” Drumheller in particular who welcomed me again to this event as Fernando Torres-Gil’s guest. Certainly, Fernando’s gracious and firm support in many areas of my life further compels me to highlight the beauty and value in advocating for the more “mature.” This celebratory event continues an eye-opening experience I am deeply blessed¬†to enjoy being inspired through!

For more information, please visit www.AARPFOUNDATION.ORG and learn more on how on the Drive to End Hunger in the U.S. and www.lakitchen.com serving Los Angeles seniors.

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wpid-2015-02-03-22.42.56.jpg.jpegCAREER ACHIEVEMENT Kevin Costner

BEST PICTURE The Theory of Everything

BEST ACTOR Steve Carell, Foxcatcher

BEST ACTRESS Julianne Moore, Still Alice

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR J.K. Simmons,Whiplash

BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS Rene Russo, Nightcrawler

BEST DIRECTOR Richard Linklater,Boyhood

wpid-20150202_185927.jpgSCREENWRITER Nick Hornby and Cheryl Strayed, Wild

BREAKTHROUGH ACHIEVEMENT Israel Horovitz, My Old Lady

BEST TIME CAPSULE Big Eyes

BEST INTER-GENERATIONAL St. Vincent

BEST BEST BUDDYPICTURE Land Ho!

BEST COMEDY Chef

BEST GROWNUP LOVE STORY Love Is Strange

BEST MOVIEFOR GROWNUPS WHO REFUSE TO GROW UP The Lego Movie

BESTDOCUMENTARY Keep on Keepin’ On

BEST FOREIGN FILM Diplomacy(Germany/France)

Awed at Movies for Grownups Gala!!!

It was one of those times filled with moments that I could scarcely believe.

Bruce Dern... so deserving of his Best Actor award tonight!

Bruce Dern… so deserving of his Best Actor award tonight!


At an awards gala called Movies for Grownups, the overflow of encouragement and openness, honest to goodness conversation, and inspired words from the podium by artist after storied artist moved me. The AARP has been combating ageism in media portrayals of our older Americans and last night’s event is just one part of their ongoing advocacy to recognize the more experienced and “wiser” part of our society as wonderfully human and deserving of dignity as any hot-bod in their prime of youth. I applaud their efforts and celebration of life…and felt so awed that I was even invited to be a part of this special evening.

This was an event so different than many others I have attended… yes, there were celebrities; yes, there were the requisite media and photo opportunities; yes, there was the glitz of a glam location, but what made this night fill my soul was the distinct absence of pomp and circumstance. Perhaps it was because the award recipients were already known prior to the event, or perhaps because it was such a very tightly monitored guest list and an impeccably sound production… No. I am certain that the difference came from the undercurrent of lives well-lived and that these talented household “names” (basically the entire room!) were simply there to glory with one another’s successes and lovingly support the journey toward more. …throughly satisfied in what life has garnered them already with no need to please or be concerned with much more than seeing promises fulfilled in their own, as well as the lives of their peers. No pretension anywhere to be felt–just heartfelt conversations and encouragement aboundingly shared…especially with the next generation including a wide-eyed and deeply touched me.
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Speaking of awestruck… this was quite a memorable red carpet walk for me. As I walked, posed, smiled, etc… halfway through the media step and repeat wall path, I notice Michael Nouri ahead, followed by June Squib, (then me), and then it’s Susan Sarandon, the winner of this year’s Lifetime Achievement Award just steps away. If I ever felt out of place, it was now! … then I laughed–at least I was providing some ethnic diversity to the red carpet!!! What the heck was I doing here in the midst of greats like Morgan Freeman (I wish I had the chance to hug him!) I realize I was there to see the possibilities ahead, not for a season, but for many many seasons and to be reminded to embrace the standard of ego-less excellence. Oh my word, in my heart and soul, I was humbled and so grateful that a dear friend and mentor on the Board of AARP asked me to attend… Thank you Fernando Torres-Gil!!!

As lively Kathy Griffith entertained us all while moving us along the program full of a dizzying array of A-listers presenting and receiving awards, knowing words of wisdom poured into my heart. Many spoke of honor. The loving kind of honor by which you never let your parents and grandparents stop dreaming. In fact, dreaming and the pursuit of that fleeting passion should be kindled and nurtured by the younger generation–what a joy and priceless gift it is to be a part of and witness the fullness of life and joys during such rare moments of dignified bliss.

There is always another chapter. No matter who you are, where you are, where you have been…there is another chapter to unfold and more life to share.

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JUST ONE DAY OF JUICING

Want just a quick reset to get your mind and gut primed to take in more nutritents AND desire more nutritionally dense foods after letting yourself “go” for a while…like me?

After 5+ weeks on location for a film shoot and eating only healthful, GF, no sugar, highly nutritious foods–mostly organic and vegan, with the occasional wild-caught low mercury fish, I treated myself to a month+ of eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Not really a treat since I felt icky during and after the eating soirees… the cravings got the best of me where I didn’t really want what I was eating as much as I just wanted to eat… the culprit? Sugar… Yup. For me, sugar–the awful refined white addictive sweetener that open the watershed of cravings in a mighty scary fashion. Tired of my munchie self, I had one full day of just wonderfully health-giving juices from Kreation Juicery.. I LOVED IT!!! DELICIOUSNESS!!!
inside my fridge Just their basic level 1 was enough to get my taste buds wanting the good-for-me stuff.. I just wanted more juice…and it reminded me of when I went for a 30-day cleanse and how I was truly satisfied with the sheer nutrition experience.

AND IT’S AWESOME THAT WHEN I DECIDE TO MAKE BETTER CHOICES FOR MYSELF, THOSE AROUND ME BENEFIT. MY DOGGIE ROCKY THE RESCUE WANTED SLURPS OF MY JUICES, TOO!!! SO, I LET HIM ENJOY CAPFUL AFTER CAPFUL… I was very pleased and cheered him on.
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So, lots of teas, one infrared session, fresh coconut water (flesh saved for tomorrow), 6 juices with 2 boosted waters, a homebrewed kombucha with chia imbibed, and a hot salt bath to cap off my chilly day, I am looking forward to a leaner, meaner, more satisfying tomorrow(s)~! Happy me…happy feet– yes, those a little pink rubber shoes!!! LOL… kinda represents how I am feeling right now… cheerful, lighter, and whimsical. (and they were only 3 dollars in Chinatown, LA). FUN! I am doing a little jig– hee hee… can you see me?! ūüôā

WRAPPED–blissfully stunned …wonderfully devasted

Without revealing more than I should, I can briefly sum up the story in my most recent film from my role’s perspective as such : a journey deep into the heart of a hurting mom, a sports professional, and a woman becoming…arising again into strength after intense brokenness… all this happening alongside and facilitated by a fellow wounded soul…to grow together beyond the devastation, experience the bonding struggles, and share the elation of achievement and hopes fulfilled. Gritty yet uplifting!

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The journey shapes the traveler and through these last 5 weeks, I have been absolutely transformed by intangible subtleties and power… proving to my uncertain heart and to others that NOTHING shall be impossible WITH God! The momentous miracles I cannot begin to express without giving away too much info most certainly came from heavenly help… wow…tearfully, joyfully wowed. Now, I cannot wait to see this project on the big screen. And I usually disdain watching my work…but in this case, I want to view the magic from a different vantage point. However, nothing can compare to the in the moment; in my body manifestation of miracles accomplished in the pressurized and limited number of takes and time. Not just once, but over and over…all captured on film. I can scarcely believe it myself. All I know is that these in-spirit-actions were graced through my very strokes when needed every time because my prayer was that God guide my work in His truth… and the story could not have been fully true without these innumerable acts of jawdropping intervention.

I hate that I have to be so vague…but you will understand when you see it all unfold onscreen! God has never felt as close and practically palpable as the last few days of this shoot…and the blessings continue!

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Some team members gifted me a few items that I truly love! Producer Randy Dyer gave me the backing of my chair–super cool momento! My leading man Brett Rice gave me a teddy bear that has sweet inside meaning and my dear “coach” Wayne Catledge shared a book called Beautiful Outlaw by John Eldredge that underscores and furthers my intentions made during this trip.. to grow into the heart of God and to know Christ in ways I have not yet. Plus a lovely mentor Marge Suidak gifted me a devotional called Abba Calling which also fuels my journey deeper within… I am sooo incredibly blessed I cannot contain my elation!

Here’s a quote from the first chapter of Beautiful Outlaw that left me stilled by the poignant reminder and so blissfully stunned:

“The records of Christ are written so you can experience him as they did, this intimate connection with the Father and the Son. John says that you can enjoy the same friendship with Jesus that he knew. For this Jesus came.
So if you do not know Jesus as a person, know his remarkable personality–playful cunning, fierce, impatient with all that is religious, kind, creative, irreverent, funny– you have been cheated.
If you do not experience Jesus intimately, daily, in these very ways, if you do not know the comfort of this actual presence, do not hear his voice speaking to you personally–you have been robbed.
If you do not know the power of his indwelling life in you, shaping your personality, healing your brokeness, enabling you to live as he did– you have been plundered.
This is why we pray,

Jesus, show me who you really are. I pray for the true you. I want the real you. I ask for you. Spirit of God, free me in every way to know Jesus as he really is. Open my eyes to see him. Deliver me form everything false about Jesus and bring me what is true.”

AMEN AND AMEN!

Today I pack my monstrous luggage to leave for home tomorrow…but my home has been where the heart of God has reached mine… I am utterly, wonderfully devastated by His love.

This song really buttoned up my experience the final week of the shoot:
This song is called TELL YOUR HEART TO BREATHE AGAIN…
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