Well with me

It is well with my soul. Oh, for so long I have desired to confess that and it be true. It is. But after no small bit of wrestling and submission...I give thanks that I am a well person, fighting back dis-ease for myself and others until the day and time and the ways of my faith bring the ultimate reclamation that I know is mine to enjoy.

6 months since my previous scan and lab tests, I received the jubilant endocrinologist’s assessment today congratulating me on another great report. A report no different than the last and with an MD’s encouragement to celebrate and live my life and to continue to pray. Wow on that, by the way! And so, I speak forth and believe for a mounting strength to ascend and continue the journey I have been blessed to experience. Excelsior!

While 2016 American Thyroid Association guidelines would now classify me as a successful patient only in need of active surveillance to make sure the contained nodule(s) stay dormant, unmoving, and unchanging based on a decade+ of studies in Korea and Japan corroborating this, I only found a semi-satisfaction that this way of healing I felt led to walk has now found me allies in a field that I fought against (and alone) for so long. But I know my journey continues as I reassess my perspective, future actions, and heart to reconcile the crucible of I AM but NOT YET. Even this in-between, in-progress place is well with me, but my goal of complete dissolution of what was once diagnosed as cancer has not yet come in black and white text that I could make my own ticker tape parade and party out of. And perhaps, I realize as I peer deep within, that is one reason why.

Just a week ago I sought my Lord God about why the full deployment of the new me and my new life God has been preparing for me is taking so much longer than I want or expected. His response in a deep intuitive impression was that one of His desires is to circumvent my tendency toward pride through discipline, achievement, accomplishment, and doings. Among the many quiet revelations I have been gifted during my prayerful healing journey, the one that has been the most difficult was being shown and told there is much more distance to go… and lot of that was in my innermost terrain. Self-sufficiency must bow to surrendering my all to the God I claim my life and faith comes from…this complete submission must be completely complete and then will my victory find me in the name of the one who is my Healer–Jehovah Rapha.

While I am not God, (obviously!) in this personal disappointment comes a special invitation to delight in what is happening and will happen as I allow my plans and timing to be given over to the God beyond time. I recall and refresh myself with His promises to take me through the darkness, solitary, underground tunnels with worthwhile treasures when I emerge to a table He has filled with goodness and bounty. I realize I am also invited to speak forth the truths that shall be if I withstand doubt and weariness and stand fast to my faith that the giants still squatting on the territories that are claimed by Christ as mine are simply great reminders that they will fall and I shall not see them again forever when the time of the Lord is mine as well. I am equipped to declare every lying symptom as wrong and rise in strength confidant God will have His way when all things, ALL things will be worked for my good and His glory… For now, I lay before my Maker saying your will; your way is well with me, resting on the song He sung over me years ago–that “this won’t be the first time you have overcome.” And God cannot tell a lie.

So as my thyroid specialist sweetly exhorted me to do… I shall continue to pray and confess that I am and will be in the less than 15% of thyroid cancer patients who exhibit complete disappearance of any trace of dis-ease and leaning into my beautiful Savior Jesus who makes not only eternal life available, but an abundant healthful and triumphant life available in the flesh upon this temporal earth. In my current understanding, this means I be with Him more which will prioritize what I will do and not do… and being a person who once took pride in doing all I can, for all people, all the time, the so-called “good” human part of me keeps fighting against the rest and reliance I know I am being groomed and seasoned in for greater things ahead which I do not yet know, but believe I will see…soon.

Taking my personal connection with God in Christ into my human day to day, I shall continue to pursue and partake in the endeavors that prosper my soul, like ballroom dance choreography performances, acting work, including a new stage play I am so blessed to be invited to as main cast, and show up in every place that I am most at peace with practicing a different modus operandi that hungers for an intimate, very reliant relationship where God’s preferences and plans are my pursuit and devotion. This continues to guide my new life since being healed of the worst, fearsome, and most crippling ailments by God’s undeniable divine encounter and kindly visitations.

All asian american female cast I am blessed to be part of!

I am hungry for nothing less than allowing a vast, loving, and most patient God to grow my patience, perseverance, and long suffering so that the best of who I am designed to be becomes free and far removed from trappings of pride–one of the most underestimated and silent saboteurs of a pure and excellent way of the heart. And that is the beginning of what is required to commune with the greatest gift and being of all: GOD–my beginning and end–with His in betweens with me now unveiling.

In a refreshed waiting with wisdom and growing discernment, walking with my beloved YHWH and Yeshua, I choose to invest in this invitation of eternal love in my every step upward and onward… knowing I thrive most when purposely championing others’ redemptive journeys. From Trials to Triumph…what a joy; what a calling; grateful for my beautiful life!

Black Bean Brownies with rich benefits!

  • INGREDIENTS:
  • 10 oz can black beans, drained and rinsed.
  • 1/2 cup almond butter (or macadamia or cashew butter)
  • 1/3 cup date paste (moistened with water to help mix)
  • 2 flax eggs
  • 1/4 cup fine almond flour
  • 1/4 cup cocoa powder
  • 1/4 raw cacao
  • 1/4 cup blackstrap molasses (about 4 flowing Tablespoons)
  • 2 Tablespoons melted coconut oil
  • 2 Tablespoons vanilla extract
  • 1 Tablespoon vanilla bean paste (optional)
  • 1/4 tsp baking soda
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • fine salt grater to add fine powder to top
  • 2 Tablespoons of water to use in food processor to help mix
  • 3/4 cup chocolate chips (with stevia or other lightly sweetened only versions)
  • OPTIONAL–for sweet tooths–omit date paste, increase black beans to be 15-16oz (or 1 full drained can), and replace molasses with 1/4 monkfruit granules… but using something like coconut palm sugar would make it most like a normal brownie. My version with above listed ingredients are for non-sweet-tooths and it is quite satisfying!

WHAT TO DO :

  1. Put all wet ingredients in first and slowly incorporate dry ingredients in gradually as food processor makes it in to a thick, smooth batter.
  2. Spoon and level batter into a baking pan…8×10 would be best as dates make this brownie rise a bit… but 8×8 would be fine, too
  3. Mix chips into top third of the batter
  4. add fine freshly grated salt powder to top of prepared batter to bake
  5. bake for 25 minutes at 350 degrees…. check if ready with a toothpick.
  6. Enjoy with nice-cream on top as a nourishing dessert snack.

WHY organic, unsulphured MOLASSES? It offers minerals that are enriching…iron, potassium, B6, and calcium…as well as an earthy caramelly old-world flavor that is deeper than just simple sweeteners. I believe every ingredient should have a body-blessing-benefit!

Carrot (Cake) Blondie Bar Vegan & GF

INGREDIENTS:

  • 1/8 pineapple chopped well in food processor
  • 3/4 cup date paste
  • 2 flax eggs (2 Tablespoons ground flax with 6 Tablespoons on preferred non dairy mylk)
  • 1/2 cup coconut oil (I like Dr. Bronner’s)
  • 2 Tablespoons of vanilla extract
  • 3/4 cup fine almond flour
  • 1/3 cup tiger nut or oat flour
  • 1 tsp. baking powder
  • 1/2 tsp. Himalayan Pink Salt
  • 1/2 tsp. all spice
  • 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
  • 1 Tablespoon Ceylon Cinnamon
  • 1 1/2 cup shredded carrots
  • 1 1/2 cup walnuts and/or pecans
  • 1/4 cup raisins (golden ones might be fun!)
  • FROSTING INGREDIENTS:
  • 1 cup soaked Indonesian cashews
  • 1 cup warmed/soften coconut manna
  • 1/2 of coconut mylk cream (1/2 of the thickened cream from chilled coconut mylk in full-fat can)
  • 6 drops of Lakanto or oth.monkfruit (liquid stevia if you don’t have)
  • 1 Tablespoon vanilla extract
Mixture is now ready to put in baking pan!

WHAT TO DO:

  1. Mix wet ingredients : pineapple, date paste, flax eggs, coconut oil, vanilla extract
  2. Add flours, baking powder, salt, all spice, nutmeg, cinnamon and mix in mixer stand
  3. Toss in carrots, then nuts, and raisins and mix a bit more.
  4. Prepare 9×9 pan and fill with thick, moist mixture
  5. Bake 40 minutes at 350 degrees
  6. Let cool
  7. After blondie bar is cooled, put the frosting ingredients in a food processor until smooth…and smooth on top of blondie.
  8. Cool in fridge and cut into bars… these have dense, chewy, but textured consistency like a brownie, but it’s a carrot blondie for those times when I get a craving for Carrot Cake– this is a vegan, whole-food option to enjoy.
close up of cross section when cutting up into bars

NOT-A-CCINO WHITE CHOCOLATE FUDGIES – Vegan, Keto

Looks like cookies and cream and kinda tastes like it, too, but the recently rediscovered secret ingredient actually has overtures of chocolate and coffee without the caffeine!!! So, this is an offering to those who miss a touch a sweet, want the resistant softness of fudge, yet want to feel like a grown up kid having coffee tinged oreo-like treats. This is a unique one for sure!

  • INGREDIENTS: (recipe still being tweaked by jane, but still good!)
  • 2/3 cup raw cacao butter
  • 1 cup coconut milk
  • 1/4 cup coconut oil
  • 2/3 cup coconut manna
  • 2 teaspoon vanilla extract (no alcohol)
  • 2 Tablespoons Ramon seed powder (stir in last.)
  • 2 Tablespoons MCT powder
  • 15 drops of monkfruit liquid sweetener
  • 3 Tablespoons of granulated monkfruit
  • 1/8 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 teaspoon of cinnamon

WHAT TO DO:

  1. In a double boiler, gently melt cacao butter and coconut manna.
  2. Add coconut milk and oil… and stir until fully incorporated.
  3. Take off heat.
  4. Add monkfruit drops and granules, MCT, vanilla extract, salt, cinnamon.
  5. Prepare your brownie pan (10×10 for thin fudge and 8×8 for thicker) by lining it was parchment paper.
  6. Add in Ramon seeds and stir until just combined.
  7. Pour into pan and top with raw coconut flakes/
  8. Chill overnight.
  9. Slice up and serve. Leave in refrigerator for longer keeping, but can leave out a room temperature without worries of melting 🙂
Stacking up those ketones with the MCT infusion here!

Spreadable Almond “cheez” round

20181108_1835137767990080476201773.jpgAs I became more vegan and less vegetarian (i.e. no eggs and dairy), making charcuterie boards for my guests became a sad-side instead of a happy-side of hosting friends for meals.  I used to make boards bursting with so much meats and dairy cheese, it often became the main course for some.  I realize that was probably excessive, but now that I

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am more grounded in less excess and more healthy options all around, I felt it was time to give a cheese board a try… with a soft cheese to add to the robust, denser baked almond cheese I just made and loved (previous post).

And yaaassss!

Ingredients:

  • 1&1/2 cups non-dairy mylk
  • 1/2 soaked and skinned wild soil almonds
  • 1/2 Tablespoon salt of choice (I used red Hawaiian)
  • 1 teaspoon fine nutritional yeast powder
  • 1 Tablespoon fresh squeezed lemon juice
  • 1 large clove of garlic
  • 1 teaspoon agar agar
  • 2 teaspoon tapioca starch
  • 1/2 cup water
  • various herb mixes to dip outside of round form (I show one with paprika and cumin based mix and another mixed herb
  • optional–try a smidge of miso and less salt for savory umami-ness

What to do:

  1. Prepare your mini cake tins by lining bottom with a bit of brown parchment paper to ease movement after it is chilled and set20181108_1828338995176687588686455.jpg
  2. Put everything in a strong blender except your herb mixes to dip the round in to decorate and blend up
  3. Pour into saucepan, let boil for a second, reduce to simmer… YOU MUST GENTLE STIR THIS NON STOP FOR 5 MINUTES
  4. Pour promptly into tins/molds
  5. Let set in your refrigerator overnight or 45 minutes
  6. Do you best to gently roll the sides only in your choice of herbs
  7. Enjoy!

VEGAN ALMOND “CHEESE” -baked

20181108_1459023450186803027513305.jpgAs I have weaned myself far and away off refined sugars, my palate has become more prone to desire savory satisfaction, so when a Chef Gustavo from Cancun made this cheese, I had to try my hand at it.  It is a bit different, but not too different and as he told me, it was rather easy to make.!

INGREDIENTS:

  • 2 cups of soaked or blanched wild soil almonds (I prefer this over even organic.)
  • 1 large clove of garlic
  • 1 Tablespoon of Hawaiian red salt (or use sea salt or Himalayan)
  • 2 Tablespoon of fresh lemon juice
  • dash of fresh black pepper

WHAT TO DO:

  1. soak almonds overnight20181107_0715295053096485032927901.jpg
  2. peel skin off them (save the skins and lightly toast for a fun salad topping!)
  3. put all ingredients into power blender until smooth
  4. use as little water as possible …only enough to facilitate blending
  5. wrap it up in a nut mylk bag or similar over a strainer and let sit overnight to let the flavors marry and the excess liquid to drain
  6. heat oven to 350 degrees
  7. spread mixture into a pan or use a silicone baking pan like I did
  8. bake up to an hour for driest and firmest texture (I like it this way)
  9. let cool and slice up to serve as you wish or eat plain
  10. 20181029_1809262911323544025596063.jpgGustavo likes to drizzle olive oil and sprinkle coriander atop–it’s delicious that way!
  11. What I did at home is put the vegan cheese on top of a raw cracker with red beet hummus to hold it all together… so flavorful!
  12. Enjoy~

Her Great Green Goodness Shake

This shake is as potent and delicious as health-giving shakes go…and the intensity of the vibrant green color of it underscores its nutritive value.20181031_134540140135380534102081.jpg

It can be made to the consistency of soft serve (how I love it,) or as liquid-y as you prefer!  Or, you might want to add more Tocos and ice in a power blender like the Vitamix, put it in the freezer for 30 minutes or so and then scoop it out and add some toppings for a real good-for-you dessert.  I crave this like crazy, so I have it at least every other day as I developed it to meet my detoxing, nutrifying, cytotoxic needs as part of a overall get whole and healed lifestyle.  Adjust it to your liking and amp up the greens in it as you can tolerate and enjoy!

INGREDIENTS: (for about 12 ounce portion… I usually double b/c I always want more as it becomes a superb meal replacement or afternoon pick-me-up!)

  • 3/4 cup mylk (unsweetened,carageenan free non-dairy beverage- I love macadamia)
  • 2-3 Tablespoons nut and/or seed butter (I prefer a mixed version)
  • 1 1/4 cups ice
  • 1 Tablespoon lignan-free flax oil (Barleans or Spectrum brands are great)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon chia seeds
  • 1 teaspoon to Tablespoon of each: Moringa, Spirulina, Chlorella (go for more!)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon of Maca (add Ashwaganda if you have it for an option)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon of Lucuma
  • 1 teaspoon Ceylon Cinnamon
  • 2 Tablespoon Tocos (rice bran powder-makes it smooth and creamy, but not a must)
  • 1 teaspoon (at least) of vanilla extract or vanilla bean paste
  • 1 serving/scoop of your favorite organic green powder for variety (see image below)
  • 1 Tablespoon of monkfruit granules or pinch of stevia to your taste
  • use banana or dates to sweetened if you  must and prefer over the above
  • SEE THE “ICE CREAM” VARIATION OF IT IN PHOTOS BELOW!

WHAT TO DO:

Simply blend it all up and make as thick or thin as you would most delight in and sit to enjoy the ultra healing you’re ingesting.  No kidding that it helped me detox from metal toxicity quickly, kept my cravings at bay, kept me satisfied for hours, and gave me a vast spectrum of minerals, protein, and vitamins I needed to recovery from many a health compromise over many years.

I must warn you… once you get this down to where you like it, you might get hooked!

It’s fun to top this with chlorophyll or E3 as I recently did to make this post with hemp and coconut shreds, but do as you please!

20181031_1344577630568153708443409.jpgMuch health and joy to you!

p.s. my other two shake/smoothies in rotation are called Hi-C-me, Cacao-Mente, and Avo-matcha… those will be posted and shared soon, too.

p.p.s… if you make and post this, please tag me on IG! @eatscommunity and @janeparksmith

AND NOW, TO MAKE IT A REAL TREAT FOR YOU AND MAYBE SOMEONE SKEPTICAL ABOUT HOW GREAT AN EXPERIENCE GOOD FOOD CAN BE…MAKE IT INTO SUPERFOOD “ICE CREAM”~ (just put in freezer 30-40 minutes, scoop it out, garnish in a hurry, and serve it up!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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