6. GRITTY DAY-TO-DAY TO-DOs with JOY! Resurrection Every Day!~

Cycles of life, death, and resurrection are ever-present in me and in all life. And in this I celebrate by giving fully of all of me while surrendering totally to the process designed by the One who made me and all of what we see and don’t. I have unwittingly come to know fear quite well and what it takes to face it and choose to trust that my fallings are not failings. Furthermore, I have come to know and trust and choose faith–that in My Abba Father’s hands and plans, my lows are prophetic toward the highs coming based on perseverent pursuits of the promises of goodness and triumph secured by Christ’s completed mission He has given to me continue. And so I shall, empowered by a greater love and life than I could with within me alone. It’s not a simple pat of “do it afraid”… to me, it’s more a matter of being more certain of the why I must rise again and again and in the process fear will flee from me.


Jesus’ complete mission, you ask? It’s his Resurrection Power I get to make real — something I meditate to take in as my own daily. In reflecting upon the magnitude of the eternity-changing-reality. my knees buckle with joy. It’s true. In the secret places I get to hang out with El Elyon The most High G-D, I am not only stilled silent, but sometimes get a giddy feel-good grace that effervesces throughly (not thorougly, but throughly.) I have grown to recognize that my trials and crises have not molded and defined me. Rather, in laying wide open to God’s guidance through the wilderness, His ever-present being and implanted identity in me through the seed of Christ has made me like Jesus and more like him in time and by joint intentionality.

Many have asked me why I just didn’t get “rid of the “problem” and use radiation or surgery. It was often not worth answering because no one knows clearer than the One who made me what the most urgent, life-threatening, or worst problem was in my life that a cancer diagnosis may just by sounding alarms to bring attention to. Besides, G-D is the best surgeon and I believed that He could resolve and/or remove any “problem” and leave the adjoining, healthy life to thrive. Only He could best divide as finely as between soul and spirit as well as between bone and marrow (Hebrews 4:12) and it is in that fine of a wisdom and discernment I wanted to rest to be restored. All in His Time. And I’m blessed to believe and receive the intangible and then palpable Spirit-kissed Resurrection this day and every day. And now, a present-look at a part of my healing journey not too far past.

When many of us get a diagnosis of some unwanted kind, like cancer, most of us, me, included, wanted an action plan to tackle and take down the offender. While I share in this blog entry the entirety of my bullet points of what I did on a day to day basis and how it changed every few weeks or months, it is not a whole picture, so it one that can be informative or paralyzing. It really depends on where you are at in helping yourself or a loved one heal… The most important thing I learned is to get grounded within and quiet enough to really hear. For me, I needed to hear the quiet leading of my God through it all and sometimes I did and other times my humanness in its fallibility and desperation overruled that essential and often elusive place and position of being God’s beloved one held in Shalom. Sometimes that uphill climb to the mountaintop is a long, windy one, but one step at a time, right? I hope the document included in this post offers some help to your healing. Thank God for grace; I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS!

The goal in the first wave of self-administered therapies and radical changes was to make cancer cells commit suicide (apoptosis) and reset the landscape of my entire body to make it hospitable for proper life to be able to grow and flourish making it uninhabitable for confused and unhealthy versions of cells.

The attached .PDF document gives you just the bare bones of the all-out war against and for the two sides of life in my physical body. It is a lot to take in as it was a lot to do, but the deeper, necessary work did not come until I realized it would not be by my striving or force of will through which I would heal, but accepting the process by which I must journey to allow what is good and only good to remain. Much of the early steps outlined that I took were superficial in that light, but necessary to begin the growth and self-maturation process with gusto and drive. With great determination comes greater disappointments…and the deepest reckonings necessary to progress. This journey…particularly fraught by this reality in its beginnings.

So, back to some nuts and bolts. You know now that a water fast was my 1st drastic decision, then going totally vegan, gluten-free, and eating only whole foods I could recognize from the good soil of our Earth… and then came a RAW FOOD only month to detox and reset my body even more. That was challenging, delicious, hellish, isolating, yet empowering… but since much of this journey is deliberate and by fully conscious choosing, setting up a reward system is quite valuable. I got child-like about it and was good to myself … I gave myself a happy-face each night for a day of raw food only eating. It made me feel good to see all the smiles as I stood strong each day knowing I was doing my body good. I still love seeing this pasted on the interior of a kitchen cabinet door.

I caution you, though, not to just study this attached document and replicate parts of it in a vacuum. There is no formula and a healing process is so personal, it is as inextricable as the very breath of God given each of us. So, as you peruse the .PDF document, you will find some added journaling to mark the milestone moments along the way… MAKE SURE YOU NOTICE THAT CHANGES MADE EVERY FEW WEEKS AND MONTHS AS IT WAS DIRECTED BY WHAT I INTUITIVELY FELT I NEEDED OR SPECIFICALLY WAS TOLD MY BODY NEED PER MY BIOCHEMIST’S BODY SYSTEM READINGS. All the choices are to support life and naturally. Remember that our bodies are always changing and need to be addressed as a dynamic organism …and with great care!

After writing about a few more major big deal action items that I felt I needed to incorporate, I’ll begin to share why I went to a clinic in Mexico #HOPE4CANCERCANCUN to get holistic treatments and additional help… I committed to a larger facility for help even after some tests from a biochemist showed I no longer had malignancy readings on his tests. Lots of reasons for that.

Hope this nitty gritty daily list (of lists) of my round-the-clock healing regimens offers some direction and understanding that this approach of allowing one’s body to heal while disabled mechanisms that fuel chronic disease takes a willingness to change everything radically and never look back–no matter how long it takes.

Her Great Green Goodness Shake

This shake is as potent and delicious as health-giving shakes go…and the intensity of the vibrant green color of it underscores its nutritive value.20181031_134540140135380534102081.jpg

It can be made to the consistency of soft serve (how I love it,) or as liquid-y as you prefer!  Or, you might want to add more Tocos and ice in a power blender like the Vitamix, put it in the freezer for 30 minutes or so and then scoop it out and add some toppings for a real good-for-you dessert.  I crave this like crazy, so I have it at least every other day as I developed it to meet my detoxing, nutrifying, cytotoxic needs as part of a overall get whole and healed lifestyle.  Adjust it to your liking and amp up the greens in it as you can tolerate and enjoy!

INGREDIENTS: (for about 12 ounce portion… I usually double b/c I always want more as it becomes a superb meal replacement or afternoon pick-me-up!)

  • 3/4 cup mylk (unsweetened,carageenan free non-dairy beverage- I love macadamia)
  • 2-3 Tablespoons nut and/or seed butter (I prefer a mixed version)
  • 1 1/4 cups ice
  • 1 Tablespoon lignan-free flax oil (Barleans or Spectrum brands are great)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon chia seeds
  • 1 teaspoon to Tablespoon of each: Moringa, Spirulina, Chlorella (go for more!)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon of Maca (add Ashwaganda if you have it for an option)
  • 1 heaping Tablespoon of Lucuma
  • 1 teaspoon Ceylon Cinnamon
  • 2 Tablespoon Tocos (rice bran powder-makes it smooth and creamy, but not a must)
  • 1 teaspoon (at least) of vanilla extract or vanilla bean paste
  • 1 serving/scoop of your favorite organic green powder for variety (see image below)
  • 1 Tablespoon of monkfruit granules or pinch of stevia to your taste
  • use banana or dates to sweetened if you  must and prefer over the above
  • SEE THE “ICE CREAM” VARIATION OF IT IN PHOTOS BELOW!

WHAT TO DO:

Simply blend it all up and make as thick or thin as you would most delight in and sit to enjoy the ultra healing you’re ingesting.  No kidding that it helped me detox from metal toxicity quickly, kept my cravings at bay, kept me satisfied for hours, and gave me a vast spectrum of minerals, protein, and vitamins I needed to recovery from many a health compromise over many years.

I must warn you… once you get this down to where you like it, you might get hooked!

It’s fun to top this with chlorophyll or E3 as I recently did to make this post with hemp and coconut shreds, but do as you please!

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p.s. my other two shake/smoothies in rotation are called Hi-C-me, Cacao-Mente, and Avo-matcha… those will be posted and shared soon, too.

p.p.s… if you make and post this, please tag me on IG! @eatscommunity and @janeparksmith

AND NOW, TO MAKE IT A REAL TREAT FOR YOU AND MAYBE SOMEONE SKEPTICAL ABOUT HOW GREAT AN EXPERIENCE GOOD FOOD CAN BE…MAKE IT INTO SUPERFOOD “ICE CREAM”~ (just put in freezer 30-40 minutes, scoop it out, garnish in a hurry, and serve it up!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Read the notes tied to each image for more information and perspective.

 

 

 

FLAX SNACKER CRACKER

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Because #earthday is really everyday, here’s a daily do-good-for-you and our planet treat!

These are a must to have around if you’re a snacker or if you’re trying to be healthier and get more of those healthy flax oils in your body.  Plus, you can top these with anything and make an endless variety of flavors to snack appropriate to your mood or health needs!20180306_182603.jpg

INGREDIENTS:

1 cup of raw, golden flax seeds (golden ones appeal to me in texture and color, but the dark brown ones are great, too!)

1/4 cup of apple cider vinegar

2 Tablespoons of Nutritional Yeast

1/4 cup fresh, finely chopped herbs (I used fennel, basil, oregano, but throw in what you like!)

Dashes of cayenne, black pepper, turmeric, or go sweeter with cinnamon and just a dash of Himalayan Pink Salt with no other herbs or seasonings.

20180307_122453.jpgWHAT TO DO:

Stir seeds with water for 4-5 hours (minimum of 3 hours, if you are in a hurry)

Mix up rest of ingredients with the apple cider vinegar and stir into goopy and slimey seed and water mixture.

Spread on your lining for whatever type of dehydrator you have.  Mine is rounded square in shape with circle liners, so don’t let my photos mislead you.  I love the large, multi-level  professional dehydrators, but the humble little one works just fine 🙂

Spread the mixture as thinly as you can without seeing through to the liner.  Dehydrate on 110 or no more 118 for 8-10 hours.  You may need to flip the seed spread middle of the way depending on what kind of liner you have.   Mine is not breathable so it needs to get its share of dehydration by flipping onto the unlined stackable shelves.

Fun tip:  I loved the crackers when they weren’t totally crunchy, but went bonkers for them when they were finally super crackly and done! TA-DA~

MINTY BROWNIE HEAVEN (Vegan. GF.)

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Base fudgey brownie layer
-2 cups soft pitted dates(I like caramelly kinds.. but go for Medjool if it’s easiest!
-4 tsp coconut oil
-1 teaspoon Himalayan pink salt
-2 cup sprouted and dehydrated walnuts
-3/4 cup rolled oats
-6 tablespoon raw cacao powder
-1/2 cup dark chocolate chips (I used the kind sweetened with stevia)
-2 peppermint candy cane, crushed (for holidays)
(or crumble up 1/4 cup organic mint candy patties for non-holiday times)
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Mint Ganache Top
-3/4 cup full fat coconut milk (only use the solidified portion of canned milk)
-1 tablespoon peppermint extract & a splash of mint extract
-1 cup dark chocolate chips (I like stevia ones unless you want to make your own!)
Decoration
1 cup of crumbled mint candies of your choice or 6 peppermint candy canes for thewp-1482547192949.jpg holidays, crushed and sprinkled on top
WHAT TO DO:
Base
  1. Use food processor to pulse walnuts and oats until finely chopped–like coarse sand. Set aside in larger bowl.
  2. Add dates, melted coconut oil, sea salt and process on high until a smooth paste forms. Let it get super sticky and dense.
  3. Add the raw cacao, walnuts/oats mixture, chocolate chips, and mint candy of choice. Process until thoroughly mixed.  It’s hard to over-process them, so keep going until you’re darn sure 🙂
  4. Line an 8×8 or smaller springform with parchment paper. (The smaller the pan, the thicker the brownie!) Press the brownie layer firmly into the loaf pan..use gloved hands. Chill while you make the ganache.
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Ganache Top
  1. Bust out your double boiler 🙂
  2. Add the coconut creamed part of your millk and mint extracts to the bowl. Heat until the mixture is steamy hot…not rolling at a boil.  Add the chocolate chips and whisk to mix thoroughly. Pour the mixture over the brownie layer and chill in the freezer.
  3. Chill for 30 minutes and top with crushed candy canes-press into the top ganache with your gloved hands gently.  Chill for another 45 minutes minutes and then cut into mini squares. Store in freezer. Allow 3o minutes in fridge before serving…and at room temperature, the nice chilled minty flavor will last about 2 hours before your should put in fridge again.
wp-1482547192996.jpgThis fantastic recipe is adapted from ilovevegan.com … Thank you!

A DOMESTICATED DIVA! …and blissed to be :)

🙂 …there’s gold at the end of this blog...

lightest and crispiest kale chips ever!

lightest and crispiest kale chips ever!

Just bragging a little bit before the final hoorah… I got ambitious due to a bunch of kale a galpal gifted me from the farmers market yesterday, so I decided I would bust out my dehydrator and challenge myself to make the lightest, crispiest (versus crunchiest) kale chips ever… and I DID!!!  Have you seen anything so golden brown and friend looking that actually wasn’t?  Me, neither!!! muahahhahaa!!! wpid-20150411_143051.jpgIt was an experiment that consisted of 2:1 (soaked buckwheat groats to sprouted pumpkin seeds) and lots of nutritional yeast, Himalayan pink salt, turmeric, ginger,  cayenne and other red peppers, dashes of apple cider vinegar and lemon juice and food processed together into a goopy paste. Then, I massaged it into all the flourishes of kale leaf crevices and then plastered it on extra thick on some for that potential extra mouthful of substance once dried… and it worked…. I am super satisfied… and with the extra goodies, it was quite filling! wpid-20150411_141000.jpg Then… I made a cauliflower, celery, and asparagus soup to simply swoon for as I was cleaning out my fridge and found I had chicken stock at the ready in my pantry.  A simple sautee, a rolling boil, and immersion blender magic along with organic adobo and mixed peppercorn gratings for seasoning and …..a super healthy soup now graces my fridge’s belly and mine. Wahoo!! I am on a roll!!! Since I was such a great domesticated dame, I decided I need to allow me-self some deserved delights…  and I happened to have some new treats that beckoned to me … For this, I give credit to a bestie for forcing me to accept a gift of delish chocolates and she hoisted upon me!!! LOL … she refused my refusal and got me all 3 flavors available at my new fav restaurant THE SPRINGS in downtown Los Angeles. http://thespringsla.com/  The chocolate is an offering by a wonderfully eco-consious obsessive chocolate-lover… let’s unite and support this company: http://fineandraw.com/ BTW I definitely feel the sticker price is worth all that has gone into its making and the rich flavor (with out refined sugars) it offers. wpid-20150411_184721.jpg wpid-20150411_184728.jpg

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I should be enjoy being the queen of my home more often … yay for Domesticated Diva-dom!!!

Let’s look “appreciate” that chocolate once, again, shall we?

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And to think this it all started with a unpretentious bundle of organic kale that came with tiny snails in tow (they are now happy and free in a garden)!

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NUTS FOR RAW PECAN PIE BITES

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COMPLEX AND SUPER INDULGENT with out anything “bad for you”… unless, of course, you eat them ALL yourself–but Thank goodness THANKSGIVING does say GIVING –You will be thankful you made these and your recipients will give THANKS, too!!! I promise… my hard to please parents actually said, “oh! these are tasty” (In Korean, of course!) ENJOY…  My version is inspired by the amazing NouveauRaw.com site… one of the best online resources of raw foodies!

NUTS FOR PECAN PIE BITES

INGREDIENTS

Crunchy Crust:

1.5 cups raw macadamia nuts, 3/4 cup raw buckwheat groats, 3/4 raw walnuts & dashes of salt

Gooey Center:

2 cups of date paste (I get mine from my farmers market. Soften with some warm water if not already moist enough)

1/8 cup of raw honey or use agave if you prefer (totally optional… it’s sweet enough without adding)

1 cup of raw pecans soaked

dashes of cinnamon, cayenne, ground ginger, & salt

Splashes of rum and almond extract

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Put your crust ingredients into the food processor and work only until it’s crumbly and you still have some whole buckwheat groats.

Place in your parchment lined and lightly greased springform pan. Press down to bind ingredients more compactly.

This is the tough part

This is the tough part

For the filling, food process the soaked pecans into a moderate powder–not too fine;not too coarse.

In your high powered blender (I like my Vita-mix.), blend up date paste, your water drizzles if you need it to mix, honey, spices, and extracts.

Add in your pecan powder and blend through.. Don’t make it too mushy and watery b/c your gooey center will not set and be too runny to be giftable!!!

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cross section after chilling

Layer your gooey goodness on top of your crust and smooth out top.

Layer the top with your chopped and whole pecans to finish.

Chill in fridge.  Cut when cooled after a few hours. Place in freezer…eat and share!

The buckwheat groats really give this soft-middle dessert a nice crunch that’s even more delightful than the pecan texture!

Dessert for breakfast folks~ 🙂  or at least for me !

Blessings!

Blueberry Hemp Muffins Battle Doughnut day!

I woke up with a hankering for blueberry muffins fueled by my want to feed my gal pals something good for them.
This was a first try and I was sooo happy with them. Not sweet, but sweet enough…and next time I may make a maple icing to drizzle on top for an extra sweet kiss.2013-06-06 10.04.02

Now, that was yesterday…and the three of us gobbled up the muffins and was fueled up for our commercial lifestyle test shoot we did together… we had fun! You can check out www.ActorsEssentials.com for my sweet galpal’s growing photography portfolio 🙂

Guess what today is? bad me day… yes, BAD ME. National Doughnut Day. Actually, I was really doing well–I made a seed-based raw vegan doughnut that looked gorgeous and tasted alright, but it was sure healthy! To be honest, I used sunflower seeds instead of the guaranteed goodness of brazil nuts because a friend recently almost died from his nut/legume allergy and I was motivated to risk the nut to seed swap. Next time…I’ll stick to brazil nuts for Raw doughnuts… However, because it was so protein dense, with added maca, and flax seeds, I was beyond full! I should’ve just stopped with my blueberry muffin snack mid-morning, but alas…
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My husband brings me a whole box of Krispy Kreme donuts plus their free Boston Creme version… and 3 donuts later, did I ever start to pay for them!! lotta dough all at once, ya know? carb coma after ouchy belly… lucky for me I had time to nap. 2013-06-07 16.30.55

Here’s the recipe for the GF & V coconut flour muffins that actually tasted much better to me than the deadly doughnuts… guilt-free and good… hmm– that’s hard to beat, eh?

Blueberry muffins with hemp seeds GF & Vegan

Ingredients:

¾ cup Bob’s Red mill all purpose GF flour (impt. b/c of the tapioca flour in it)
1 cup coconut flour
½ cup cassava flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon Himalayan pink salt
3 packets of stevia (or ½ cup of sweetener of choice)
½ cup agave or honey
4 dashes of Ceylon cinnamon
2 dashes of ground nutmeg
1/2 cup organic virgin coconut oil
3 flax/chia egg replacements
1/2 – 1 full cup non-dairy milk (I used coconut-almond blend)
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 overripe mashed banana
2 cups organic blueberries (I like to use frozen)
2 tablespoons of hemp seeds
Grade B maple syrup, optional

Instructions:

Preheat the oven to 350ºF. Line muffin pan with liners or use silicone baking mold.. I like using both for variety of presentation.2013-06-06 10.04.13

In a large mixing bowl, whisk together the flours, starch, sugar, baking powder, baking soda, sea salt, cinnamon and nutmeg. Sift all into another bowl.

In a stainless steel bowl, warm coconut oil with mashed banana; mix egg replacers with non-dairy milk, and vanilla and beat to combine. When just warm enough to have coconut oil still liquid, combine both liquidy mixes and then add to dry mixture and continue folding/beat together until smooth. It will not be your typically wet batter b/c coconut flour will soak it all up. Just drizzle additional nondairy milk until all mixed up enough while adding hemp seeds. Add blueberries and mixed gently by hand. Do not over mix—little wild frozen blueberries will mash quickly, so frozen works well here.

Using a spoon, drop the dough balls into the 12 muffin cups and smooth tops with spoon. Bake in the center of the oven for 22-25 minutes, until domed and golden brown.

I think a nice maple syrup drizzle would be perfect if a morning kiss of sweetness is desired.

And some notes on tapioca vs. cassava flour to tickle the brain as much as we are tickling the tastebuds today:
Nutrition
• The cassava is a staple food for about 500 million people around the world. The edible parts of the cassava are the roots and leaves. The roots resemble sweet potatoes and are rich in carbohydrates, and the leaves are rich in vitamins and protein. Although similar to potatoes, the cassava is higher in potassium and has twice the fiber content.
Cassava Flour and Tapioca Flour
• Cassava Flour is made by cooking, drying and then grinding the cassava roots. This flour is different from tapioca flour, which is made from the leaves of the cassava plant. Both of them are gluten-free, so they are used widely by those with celiac disease or gluten intolerance.

Uses of Cassava Flour
• Cassava is often used as a substitute for wheat flour, especially to make breads, cakes, pasta and dumplings. It is also used to make starchy custards and puddings. In countries where wheat has to be imported and is in limited supply, bread is made by mixing cassava flour with wheat flour. Cassava flour is known to attract fewer insects and pests than normal wheat flour. Cassava flour’s starchy texture makes it an excellent thickener, and it is used to thicken soups, baby foods, puddings, sauces and gravies. Cassava flour is also used as a binding agent in sausages and processed meats to keep the meat together and ensure that it does not dry out completely while it is cooked.
Uses of Tapioca Flour
• Tapioca flour, which is made from the ground leaves of the cassava plant, is also used as a substitute for wheat or other carbohydrates. It is a very popular flour among bakers, because it gives breads and cakes a white finish and a chewy texture. It has no strong aroma of its own, so it is an ideal choice as a thickener because it does not interfere with or overpower the taste or smell of any dish.
• Copied from ehow:
http://www.ehow.com/info_8650307_uses-cassava-flour.html

oh… in case you want to see my healthy and very pretty doughnuts…
here are what I am calling my DA-DONUT-Os —
(but, again, I think I would have been happiest if I just stopped with my muffins…) *sigh.
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Now, off to a proper, balanced dinner with my thoughtful husby. muah*